Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I need more than answers!That's right, I need more than whatever answers there are provided. I need solutions as well. Gawd, I just hate it whenever I experience this feeling of emptiness. It's not as if I don't have my girls, it's not like Raiden's ditched me, and neither is my family far from me... but somehow, I just feel empty lah!
Like this afternoon, I was at home with mum and grandma. I was chatting with someone online when this strange feeling of emptiness just came over me and won! I don't know what exactly caused it... still trying to figure it out.
It's like, all of a sudden, you just feel dead bored. And then there's nothing to erase this boredom out of you because you've really got NOTHING to do! Ok, apparently, chatting online doesn't seem to be a good way of keeping myself occupied. There's this urge to hang out in town with someone! But then again, most of my friends were still in school at that time and I was too lazy to dress up.
I fucking gross myself out with how lazy I am and my astonishing propensity for procrastination.
So there you go; bored with zilch to do at home and yet lazy to go out. I hate it, hate it, hate it!!! So sickening.
I practically wasted one whole afternoon doing NOTHING. Now's the time to make-up for all those lost hours... study Mental health.
And I need more than God to save me =(
Shadow stepped, body touched, soul crashed at 10:23 pm.
