Wednesday, January 30, 2008

I need more than answers!

That's right, I need more than whatever answers there are provided. I need solutions as well. Gawd, I just hate it whenever I experience this feeling of emptiness. It's not as if I don't have my girls, it's not like Raiden's ditched me, and neither is my family far from me... but somehow, I just feel empty lah!

Like this afternoon, I was at home with mum and grandma. I was chatting with someone online when this strange feeling of emptiness just came over me and won! I don't know what exactly caused it... still trying to figure it out.

It's like, all of a sudden, you just feel dead bored. And then there's nothing to erase this boredom out of you because you've really got NOTHING to do! Ok, apparently, chatting online doesn't seem to be a good way of keeping myself occupied. There's this urge to hang out in town with someone! But then again, most of my friends were still in school at that time and I was too lazy to dress up.

I fucking gross myself out with how lazy I am and my astonishing propensity for procrastination.

So there you go; bored with zilch to do at home and yet lazy to go out. I hate it, hate it, hate it!!! So sickening.

I practically wasted one whole afternoon doing NOTHING. Now's the time to make-up for all those lost hours... study Mental health.

And I need more than God to save me =(

Sunday, January 27, 2008

After 4 years...

I've finally been promoted to 2nd Kyu!!

R.I.P my green belt.

PS: Yes, this photo is a VERY BADLY taken one. And it was after Ivan's killer training and yeah, nothing more needs to be said.

Friday, January 25, 2008

When I get angry over something that doesn't even exist


I turn to Mortal Combat; Smosh-style!!





Bombotic tone: Gosh! I feel so much better! *megawatt smile*

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Err... heh heh~

It was a big mistake to assume that the computer got hit by some kinda worm.

No virus lah!

The graphic card just got scorched! =P

Monday, January 21, 2008

Yet another virus attack!


It's been a year since I've shifted to where I'm currently living. Though further away from school, I'm not complaining... yet. It beats living in a neighbourhood whereby you wake up, not because of a non-stop ringing alarm clock, but because the aunties who go marketing every morning have vocal chords which can challenge the engines of aeroplanes.


And yes, my computer's down with a virus. I'm able to blog because I was supposed to start school at 12pm today, but instead, I came at 10 (thinking that June Wong's lecture was still on)!!! I rushed like mad in the morning because I woke up 'late', took a cab to school, only to see Yoga strolling by the overhead bridge with a stick in his hand. That was when he planted the bomb on me -_-"


On a brighter note, I get to use the computer!


And on a not so bright note (which is beginning to gloom over the bright note at a very rapid pace), I'm stoning away... and I'm not getting any younger!!!!


I can't believe I'm gonna be 20 this year. It's so.... FAST!! It doesn't seem very long ago when I turned 18/19. Shoot, I'm starting to feel real old. No offence to those who're above 20, but it's gonna take me awhile to get used to the fact that I no longer fall under "adolescent".


Adult.


Hate it.


Grown up.


ROARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I was reading the papers on saturday and the thought of snipping my locks came to mind once more. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with keeping my hair short; could be due to my primary school principal. One of her rules was that girls aren't allowed to keep their hair past chin-length. You can imagine how much I hated that rule. My friends from Loyang and Pasir Ris Primary could have long, silky locks whereas I was mostly spotted with a bob-hairdo.


I did get a chance to let my hair grow during my secondary school years though. From the start of Sec 2, I let it grow for a year and I decided I couldn't take it no more because;


1) it took me damn long to dry my hair after my evening shower


2) I got irritated each time my pony-tail got messy during Judo trainings (Judo ain't ballet, you know?)


3) I was on the verge of getting DANDRUFF!!! and


4) having a ponytail made me blend in with everyone. But with short hair, I can style it whichever way I want, whenever I wish to.


So back to what I was saying, I had a sudden calling to chop off my (currently) brunette hair. But then again, there was another calling, contrary to the first one, asking me to TRY and avoid going to the hairdresser's for the whole of this year.


Ok, since my hair has been shorter than most of my classmates' for 4 semesters now, I'll do my best and keep it long... here's to those who once laughed at me for being flat-chested and boyish. We'll see who's the "real woman" at the end of 2008, alright?


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I don't like people who start trouble with others by bringing up topics about how he/she is prettier/more handsome or more voluptious/mascular than the other person.


Pretty and handsome, so?


Grow one pimple and it's the worst day of your life. I'd rather feel like the world's coming to an end when I encounter bigger, more serious events with credibility that your oiled-up pore can never measure up to.

'Nuff said.

It's so much easier to be "an average-looking girl next door" than a "fashionista who lives for the glitz and glamour".

First up, being average (by average, you mean ordinary, yes?) doesn't require me to look good all the time. Therefore, I can wake up late on Saturday mornings and smell of nothing but horrible morning breath, and NOBODY can say anything about it because, why? I'm ORDINARY. And ordinary people are not worth talking, or rather, not worth gossiping about.

For girls who're "damn fine and dandy", the moment you get off your silk-covered, king-sized, custom made teak wood bed, it's nothing but hustle and bustle to get your hair done, make-up put on and clothes matched before anyone can lay eyes on you.

Now that is so sad!!! What's the point of looking good when you don't even feel remotely positive? The only bright side to this kinda live is that when you eventually die (because you're oh-so-depressed but can't let anyone know about it), you die looking good ;) So kudos to that! *thumbs-up*

See? Being "ugly and fat" is not so bad afterall. To hell with princesses who've skin as fair as snow, hair as black as ebony and lips as red as rose. Such people DO NOT EXIST. So as fairy tales, they shall remain *winks*

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Lecture for Mental Health starts at 12.

AND IT'S ONLY 11.30!!!!!!

Fine, shall continue blogging about whatever random stuff that pops into my head.

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YOU, please stop stirring up so much trouble. You're already at the losing end! If they were to corner and threaten you, God knows what'll happen if they eventually do lay their hands on you.

If you're unhappy with them, fine. Not everyone loves you and at the same time, you can't love everyone. But to the extend of blogging false facts about them (and using their real names)?! Woman, even if you do hate their guts, the least you could do is respect them as human beings.

Just leave it ok? Let things be the way they are and STOP your whinings. It's not getting you anywhere, is it now?

I'm not asking you to throw in the towel. I'm asking you to hold onto your towel and walk away. Meaning, hold onto you pride and clear off lah!

Friday, January 18, 2008

K-I-M-B-E-R-L-Y

What Kimberly Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Major injury No.2

Had grading yesterday.

Success.

But at the cost of my lower back.

Knee injury (2002) and now a back injury (2008). *no more please*

Thanks to those who helped me out =)

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I'm sorry.

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground

Saturday, January 12, 2008

HAR?!

We're halfway through into the first month of the new year and I've only blogged once in 2008?!?!

WHAT THE HECK?????!!!!!!

And so, my posting at the Institute of Mental Health has come to an abrupt (LOL) end. I would wanna continue working there a little longer if given the chance to, but well, all good things come to an end eventually. The nurses there are OUTRAGEOUS; in a good way, of course! Especially SN Deddy aka Daddy! "who's your daddy?!" =P

The patients... THEY ARE NOT "SIAO". The general public's perception of the mentally ill should be changed. They're a really fun bunch of people to hang out and play Blackjack with! Dang, I'm so gonna miss them and their wild ideas.

I managed to complete this posting without any injuries; though Haikel suffered a little scratch. He's gonna mutate any time now... I'll be keeping my eyes peeled. If you wanna know how he received the "love mark" (or scratch) on his neck, feel free to ask me. It's not appropriate to type it out here. Afterall, nobody can be blamed for what happened on that day =)

NYP Open House yesterday; the club was supposed to perform but we were the last ones to go onstage. Majority of the crowd already left the atrium by the time the second last club were performing. Judokas who were not involved (Ben, JJ, Lynn, Wanshi & myself) were sitting right in the middle of (literally) nowhere and filming ur juniors.

Benjamin could do Kata Guruma on Chee Ka!!!

Ok, it's official, my shoulders aren't broad enough. I need higher levels of testosterone!!!!!

The guys from the Students' Council were super nice to help us carry the tatamis back to the Dome eventhough it was raining cats and dogs. NYP students are united afterall ;)

Before I make my move, somebody please show her some love. She's obviously deprived of it. Sad.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

IMH Posting!

What can I say? I love being locked up in a ward with 17 male patients. Of course, I also love the student nurses I'm currently working alongside with. Andy and Sangeeta are so pro at interviewing! And I just found out I have a hidden talent; I can write at the pace of a speeding bullet!

Judo grading two weeks from now. The time I've been waiting for is finally gonna arrive.

One more week at IMH and I'll be back at my usual hospital having my Gynae posting. RAHHH!! That means I gotta wake up super early to take a bus and two trains just to be on time. Dang! I wanna extend my stay at IMH!!! Damn frickin' fun lahhhh!!!! It ain't like my previous attachments whereby I have to take vital signs, assist in ADLs, take nursing reports etc. Over here, I just play games with the patients ALL DAY!

Hmm... I wonder...