Thursday, September 28, 2006

It occured to me suddenly that

People come and go within the blink of an eye and a snap of fingers. I was doing what I did best this evening; random surfing. I ran out of sites to explore and resorted to reading an ex-classmate's blog (we've stopped contacting each other for quite some time now).

As always, her entries are filled with worries about her not knowing how well she'll do in her upcoming 'A' levels. Nothing peculiar, considering she's the sort of student who's always aiming for improvements and distinctions.

But as I read on, three of her entries caused my eyes to remain open longer than they should be. Until now, I still can't come to terms that what I read was true.

Let's just say that I was kinda close to L (the ex-classmate in topic) way back in 2001 and 2002. We had a really cool clique with J, V, JM, R and DH. Those lovely juvenile days in Tampines Mall, Century Square, White Sands, East Point, Tampines Blk 201... Yeaps. Anyways, whenever we planned for an outing, I had a rather bad (or good, it's up to you to decide) habit of turning up extra early and poor L had to invite me to her place for a drink whilst she got ready.

Her house may not be well-furnished with all those fancy furnitures, LCD flat-screens, the latest laptop model and all, but the one thing that made that place special was the feeling of love that exuded from L's very friendly and good natured mum. Whenever she sees me (be in in school or somewhere else), she never fails to smile at me and asks me to study hard.

I was envious of L for having such a loving mother who was never afraid of showing signs of affection to her daughter in public. During lessons, L always strived for the best results and constant improvements for her weaker subjects because she wanted to repay her mum for spending so much on her tuition fees. This mother-daughter bond is just unbreakable.

Ok, what L wrote in those three posts of hers gave me one of the biggest shocks in my life because it concerned her mother's death.

Yes, you read me right. Her mother died on this day one year ago.

All I can do now is ask myself how will I ever be able to cope if a parent leaves me. How did Soo Chin cope when Uncle "Black Joe" passed away? How is Bindi Sue coping with her daddy's tragic dying? Will I be able to be like them both?

I get very paranoid nowadays whenever I experience some sorta illness. I'm afraid of dying, I don't deny that. I have yet to see the world, to graduate with my Diploma, to get my driving license, to get my first high-paying job; LIFE HAS ONLY JUST STARTED FOR ME.

I didn't manage to go for my attachment for two days (tuesday & wednesday) because there was severe redness in both my eyes and my vision was blurred for no particular reasons. I didn't know what to think when I was watching Singapore Idol halfway and my eyesight just blanked out. I swear, I couldn't see anything clearly!!

The first thought that came to my mind was if I was gonna be blind. Second thought was, did I over use my lenses and cause problems to my cornea. Another friend of mine, FB, is currently suffering from this problem. Over using of contact lenses caused him his cornea.

I couldn't bare the thought of having any of those sympthoms. I can't lose my eyesight; at least not now when I've only just began to understand the true meaning of living my life to the fullest.













Thank goodness it was nothing but dryness of my eyes that caused all the redness and blurry visions. A minor issue that resulted in a major freak out.

I am thankful that I'm still as healthy as ever. Omg, eversince that scare I had during my medical check up in March, I get wild thoughts everytime something usual happens to me. Thanks to YOU, I appreciate life a whole lot more.

Praise be to you.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

IT'S WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

That horrible Nicky just had a very strong urge to do something very sadistic. She uploaded a very fugly picture of me and she used it in her latest post!!! OMG!!!

No, I WILL NOT SHOW THAT DISGUSTING PICTURE OVER HERE!

But if you're in for some sweet revenge that I've been planning, read on!






BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!1

Nicky, I still have that little video I made of you changing into the uniform... heehee~! Wait till I'm able to upload it... THEN WE SEE WHO GETS THE LAST LAUGH!

Monday, September 25, 2006

What did I do?

I was about to type a very nice entry about me meeting up with Lou-lou, Den and Mag, but FORGET IT! I came home, did NOTHING wrong but still got my ass screwed upside down by that psychotic mum of mine.

What did I do man?!! She accuses me of talking back to her but please lah, if she didn't start it off by being unreasonable, would I stand up for myself and rebut her??!

Here's what happened; I start my attachment tomorrow morning right? So being the obedient student that I am, I wanted to remove my nail varnish to avoid getting reprimanded by the staff nurse. I came home, asked my mum if I could borrow her nail polish remover and she said ok. So take lor.

HOW WAS I TO KNOW THAT THERE WAS ONLY A FEW DROPS LEFT IN THE BOTTLE?!

I only managed to remove the nail varnish off my left thumb. So am I supposed to report to work tomorrow with one unpainted nail and nine painted ones? NO RIGHT!! So I went and ask her if she had another bottle to spare...

Me: Mummy, you still have any more nail polish remover?

Her: *in a very loud tone* ON THE LIGHT AND SEE FOR YOURSELF LAH!!

Me: *on the lights and took a new bottle of remover*

Her: Aiyah! Why must on the bedroom light?! Dunno how to just on the dressing table light meh?!!

Me: Never mind lah... on whichever light also the same right?

Her: YOU TALK BACK DAMN CLEVER RIGHT?! IDIOT!!


What kind of mother is this sia?! I was being respectful by actually ASKING FOR HER PERMISSION when I wanted to borrow a new bottle ok!! The least she could do was be appreciative and answer my question. Need to shout at me meh?! Need to use vulgarities meh? Need to find fault with me over which light to on and which light not to on meh? Cheebye.

If she thinks that I'm not a good daughter, I would've simply walked into her room, on the lights, take her belongings WITHOUT ASKING and leave.

But did I do that?!! Did I do anything that gave her the right to yell at me and call me an "idiot"? Nabeh!!

Aku ask permission, kena marah. Tak ask pun kena marah. Pergi mati sudah lah!


My dad then asked me if I wanted to have kids in the future (got no link to my argument with her but he still asked. omg!). I told him no. I think I made the right choice in giving that answer. Know why? Because, according to some others, I have the exact same character as my mum. So if I ever have kids, I might treat them the way my mum treats me and no, I do not want others to suffer like how I am currently suffering.

I SHALL BE THE LAST PERSON ON EARTH WHO BARES THE SAME CHARACTERISTICS AS THAT WOMAN! God had better thank me for this; I am doing mankind a HUGE favour.

And in case you're wondering, here's the conversation that continued between me and my dad after he asked if I wanted to get pregnant:


Me: Because my character same as her.

Dad: *in a sarcastic tone* Hmm... Yah lor! Yah lor!

Me: So next time if I treat my kids the same way she treats me how? Why give birth to people and let them hate me?

Dad: Orh... dun wanna let them suffer ah? Then you want to get married?

Me: NO!!!!

Dad: Wah! Then you're going to depend on me your whole life ah?! Die lah like that!!

Me: Don't forget leh... she always talk bad about mama (my dad's mum). What if I do the same to my mother-in-law? And she always anyhow scold people... think she who sia?!

Dad: That's why... That's when you have to learn and change. Don't need to follow her what. Even your ah-gong (my mum's dad) also say that your mummy has a very bad temper. But I told him, I have to accept her since I married her. Sometimes I even have to step in and stop her from talking too much, cause if I don't, she'll go out of hand. So learn from her mistakes.

Me: Yah... learn from her mistakes... you very brave ah... can marry and tahan her for more than two decades. I live with her for 18 years only also cannot take it already ah.

Dad: Eh, watch your words ah... she's your mummy, you know.

Me: So? I just now never do anything wrong, she also scold me. Siao one!

Dad: Aiyah... maybe she's just in the wrong mood? Let her be lah.

Me: She wrong mood, my fault ah?! She still in "wrong mood" or not? Need me to be her punching bag?

Dad: Haiz!


Having my dad suffer from my hostility is enough. No kid of mine shall go through the exact same fate as him.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

I am beginning to....

SUFFER FROM WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS AFTER PUNCHING OUT FROM BJ JUST 14 HOURS AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Made quite a few new friends... nice people to hang around and talk cock with. OMG!! And yesterday's staff meal was absolutely heavenly!!! SEAFOOD PARADISE!!! But somehow or rather, I didn't have guts to feast on the mussels although Ziqi was constantly asking me to give it a try.

Nicky, if you're reading this, I WAS NOT TRYING TO GET A PICTURE OF HIM OK!!! You are the pervert who have pictures of his butt IN YOUR PHONE!!!! Dirty, dirty, dirrrrrrrrrty!!!

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Steven has to be, like, THE fattest sonofabitch who has ever set foot into the restaurant. Omg! He's such an egotistical, moronic, biase, unreasonable, perverse, irritating, sickening and FAT retard!! How could he do all those stuffs to Roy?!!

FUCKING CHEEBYE KIA!

mailto:~!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Walls have ears; scary.

Need I further elaborate the sub-title? Seems like quite a few people know about him and I at this point of time. But they should really take notice that it's all over already lah. Eversince that night when we went our separate ways and never contacted each other again... then he suddenly showed up one night but IT just wasn't there anymore.

In short, all's gone. No more.

Ok, the past two days that I've been in Bugis have been outrageous! Working with Mag, Jasmine, Carol, NICKY, Nelson and Noel is just so different from working in MS. Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy working with Den, Lou-lou, Andrew, Ash, Cloudy, Farhan, Naz, Kelvin, Simon, Lisa... but with some FAT FUCKER managing the outlet with such strong biaseness, my enthusiasm is forced most of the time when he's around.

Urgh. MS, the outlet that I have been with since day one, has now become some sort of a red light district. I can't believe how a lively restaurant has suddenly become a complete mess! I don't know it anymore.

BJ, on the other hand, is still as lively as ever! It just lacks the presence of those who've left.

So I had breakfast with NICKY yesterday at around 11am. Yummy fishball noodles... but that woman kept on trying to take a picture of me with my mouth full. Of course, she was UNSUCCESSFUL! I, however, managed to snap one of her drinking soup and using her handphone to shield her face from my phone's camera lenses.

Have you ever heard of anything so humourous?? USING A PHONE TO COVER ONE'S FACE?! I think working with her throughout Christmas has caused me to be immune to all her unique traits. My goodness. She's currently in love with Jonathan Leong and her handphone is filled with pictures of him. I asked her how she got those pictures and you guys know what she said?

"Stand in front of the TV and take lah!" <-- Words of wisdom!!

Got come across this kind of people before or not?!! And I, being greatly influenced by her, sat in front of my tv set last night and took many pictures of the hunky Hady Mirza (but they were all very awful leh!).

Anyways, once we were done with our meal, we headed back to the restaurant. But first!!! THE JAY-WALKING INCIDENT.

Yeaps, we had to cross a small road and vehicles kept driving past non-stop. So how? Jay-walking was our only solution to get to work on time.


This was what the scenario would have looked like if it was viewed from a building:

I am damn bad at drawing human figures and I am even worse at drawing them from a bird's eye view. Therefore, I used a pink circle to represent Nicky and a cyan coloured one to represent me.

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This would be what the scenario would've been like if you were CLOSE ENOUGH to hear what Nicky said to me as we stood like statues between two cars.

Nicky is in the middle of a so-called crisis and she can still say things like, "Omg! So scary!!". That gal is siao one lah! Imagine a hunter getting lost in a jungle and he sees a tiger running towards him. What would be his immediate reaction?

1) Organise his thoughts on what to do

2) Exlaim, "Omg! I'm gonna die!"

If our dear Nicky was in the hunter's position ah, it's 100% affirmative that she'll choose the second option.

(As those observant ones would've noticed, this time I'm a yellow circle because I don't think cyan suits my bronze skin very well)

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And here's what the scenario would be like if you were able to read my thoughts after Nicky said what she said.

I also added two black lines on myself (the yellow circle) because I was going "diao" after hearing what Nicky said. Something similar to those Japanese cartoons whereby one character says something dumb and another character either gets black lines or a droplet on his/her head? Yeaps, that was what I sorta experienced IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD.

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Nelson and Jasmine had to attend this meeting at CS. Mag was on leave. Nicky was overall in-charge of the restaurant... what do you think happened in there huh?

Muahahahaha!!!!!!! SSSSsssssshhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Monday, September 18, 2006

Undeniable

I just wanna say I love you and I cherish you alot. No amount of thanks can make up for the number of times you've showered me with unfailing love and everlasting care.

I wanna be there for you. To share your pain, your burden and your worries. I want to graduate with good grades, fond memories and strong determination to make you proud. I have let you down this semester; my very first semester. SORRY.

This is a promise I make to you; no more distractions, no more rebelling.

Take care of your health, please. Don't leave me now. I need you more than ever now because your support and encouragement is important to me. I can't bring myself to think about life without you. Don't leave me... please don't.

It's hard for me to express all my emotions out to you face-to-face since I'm not the sort who gets all mushy and emotional. Though I appear nonchalant and cold, it's heart-wrenching to see you in this state. The once fit, once healthy person I knew... now having health problems and a shorter memory span. It hurts me to see you this way, it really does. But all I can do is sit and watch you bear with the aches cause there's nothing I can do to literally ease it off you.

Stay with me till I reach my 21st birthday. Rejoice with me when I graduate and move on from there. Be by my side as I walk down the aisle. Be there to witness the birth of my first child. Guide me along the lines of parenting. Don't ever leave me.

Losing Rocky made me cry two days straight without stopping. Losing you, I'll cry until I become blind and until you rise up from the grave and tell me it's nothing but a bad dream.

I love you that much.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Credits due:

Thanks to the ever reliable *Shirleen* for this flawless blogskin.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Good, good day!!!

Saturday went real well, I guess (as compared to Friday). The day started off with Denise and I meeting up way before punch-in time for a lil' bitchin' and catching up. So while I was onboard the over-crowded train, that girl sent me an sms that went something like, "OMG kim! I forgot the most impt part of my uniform! MY UNIFORM!! How, how how?"

-_-"

Can anyone beat that? Leaving one's house on a working day WITHOUT ONE'S UNIFORM?! So since I reached City Hall alot earlier than she did, I went to the outlet first and dug for a medium-sized uniform under the booth seats. And in the process of helping Denise, I nearly broke my back! Damn those booth-seats that weigh a tonne!

Staff meal was GOOD!

Teriyaki fried chicken pieces!! Kang kong!! Water cress soup!! All these dishes accompanied by iced peach tea and just one scoop of rice. DELICIOUS, I tell you!

While the both of us were eating and talking about school, Farhan came to remind me of my mission; to help him get the name and handphone number of the pretty salesgirl from U2. HAHAHAHA! That fucker has no guts to do it himself. Need to rely on two gals to help him with such a thing.

Finished lunch, went over to U2; the moment Denise and I stepped into the shop, THE salesgirl went out for her break. So we made a U-turn and trailed her to the front of Samuel & Kelvin where she went to throw some plastic thingy (we had to hide behind a pillar ok!) and then went through the back door to the open air benches for a smoke.

Farhan saw the salesgirl through the glass panels of Section C and with Denise and I just walking closely behind her, HE THOUGHT WE ALREADY SPOKE TO HER and he hurriedly ran ro the bar, had a quick mouth wash and when Denise signalled to him that we've yet to talk to her, he said, "Huh?! Alamak!! I thought what sia. I dun wanna go anymore. I shy lah!"

So yeah, Denise and I "walked past" the salesgirl (who was now sitting at one of the benches alone) and as we passed by her, I "exclaimed", "Eh!! You're from U2 right?!" She nodded and the both of us started talking to her about general stuffs.

I got to know her name, her age, her ex-school (very near mine!!!), where she lives, where's her permanent work place et cetera!

As I was having this very forced conversation with her, the whole crew of Billy Bombers Marina Square was actually watching us through Section C; Farhan being the most anxious of the lot and he called Denise to ask what I was talking to the girl about, what did she say, what sort of questions I asked blah blah blah.

Then Denise shouted through the phone (in pretense), "Oi! You're having break now right? Come out lah!"

Farhan came out, walking like some sorta cowboy and came towards us. I introduced him to the girl, he shook hands with her and squeesed in between me and her. That bastard!

Here's the funny part, the moment he sat down, the girl's phone rang and she was chatting away on her phone. Farhan turned to me and asked continuously, "Eh! say what? say what?!" I was laughing so hard, the bench we were sitting on actually started moving!"

The Andrew came out with his phone and began taking pictures of "scenaries". When I said "scenaries", I meant Farhan and the girl. And for some reason, Farhan ran back to the restaurant with Andrew, Denise went after them; leaving me with the girl alone. I think she sensed something amiss and told me, "I have to make move first ok?"

OMG

I sprinted back into the restaurant and screwed Andrew and Farhan upside down. Farhan for becoming a jellyfish after just shaking hands with the pretty lady and Andrew for emerging as a paparazzo.

Steven then asked me for some paper and he wrote a note to the girl, inviting her to join us for supper at Makansutra at 11pm that night. HAHAHAHA! He wrote his number at the the end of the last sentence and asked me to pass it to the girl. But I sneakily wrote my number at the bottom right corner of the note with my name written HUGELY at the side.

Passed it to her. Her voice is real sweet!

The crowds soon started to pour in and everyone was getting busier by the seconds. I GOT TO SPEAK TO LISA'S SON! Hotstuff, I tell you. Those Thai features certainly does make him look tantalizing. LoL~! But I'm no paedophile.

It was a crazy evening. Customers coming in non-stop and my section was continuously being filled up. But never mind. I received 3 comments forms from the customers I served; all praising me for my service. Buahahahaha!!!! 3 in one night! You can or not?!!

As I was in the toilet during my 5 minute break, I received an sms from HER. She couldn't join us cause she's got plans. SO SAD!! But Farhan, at least I've got her number now!!

I got to know this Australian doctor named Christian.

Kinda funny, how I started talking to him. I just happened to pass by his table and as I was clearing his dish, he read my name-tag and said, "Hi, Kim". I said hello and he told me that his friend's name was also Kim, but spelled as Khim. So I shook hands with Khim and then the ang-moh who then told me his name was Christian. He's from Brisbane, will be here for about a month for the IMF thingy. HE "PROMISED" TO BRING ME GO SHOPPING!

Here's what happened after I told Louis that Christian was gorgeous and when the person in topic came to the cashiers' area to pay his bill....


Louis (to himself): Why is the machine taking so long to dial? *turns to me and pushed me in front of Christian* Entertain him for awhile *machines starts dialling, pushes me away from Christian* No need you to entertain liao. Hahaha!

Christian (who saw the pushing around): Is something wrong whith his (Khim's) card? If there is, I'll pay.

Louis: Oh no no. The machine's just taking a real long time to dial. *awkward dead silence* By the way, she *points at me* kinda likes you!

Kim: *dumbfounded* Ok! I never said that! He (Louis)'s having wild thoughts!

Christian: Hmm, havin' wild thoughts are bad.


LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Punched out kinda late. Around 11, I think. Headed for steamboat at Bugis with Louis and Denise. Mag and Joe were there as well. Joe Jr's on the way. Mrs Kok is two months pregnant, and according to the father-to-be, the size of the foetus is of a "kacang putih".

Talked crap with the bunch till 1.30am and headed home! Damned the nuggets. How could we have lost by 3 goals?! FUCK IT!


NR0608 barbeque on Sunday (yesterday). The sight of them using the umbrella to shelter the lighted charcoals instead of themselves just makes me giggle till my funny bone goes numb. I RECEIVED A REALLY COOL GIFT FROM PRAS AND MOON!

Happy birthday Pras (9/09)
Happy Birthday, SHIRLEEN (10/09)


He's leaving today. Maybe he's already left. I dunno.