Saturday, February 03, 2007

January Evaluation!

Wow!! First month of 2007; over and done with. Quite alot of incidents happened within this short time-span of 4 weeks, good and bad. But hey, I'm not complaining. Maybe I do groan alot about why the negative stuff have to happen but then again, I'm glad it all did occur. Really helped me open my eyes wider to the nasty dog-eat-dog world.

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Did some catching-up

So, the beginning of the new year eh? I got back in contact with a couple of friends from SJSM. They've grown, they've changed (though some things about them still remain the same). They're truly fun to hang out with; got plenty to talk about with them!! The most memorable conversation would be the one I had with Ian at Chicago's. Was about some "pen and pencil" thing. HAHAHAHAHA!!

I went back to Church with Denise and I met Rachel who's back from Brisbane! Miss ya loads, gal!! She was the only one who was able to recognise me. I was standing outside the toilet and Evelyn, another of my childhood bestie, just ran past me. Gawd!! Melissa too. And Uncle Patrick!!! OMG! I miss Uncle Patrick ALOT! He didn't recognise me either, that is, until I told him my name. His first words after that were, "Hey! Welcome back! Wah... you look so different now. Welcome back, welcome back!".

Oh yeah, one more thing. Thanks for the tickets, James.

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A whole new addiction!

Does anyone remember the last time I played a game of pool? If I'm not wrong, it's way back in January 2006 with Faris at Singapore shopping centre. Where's that?!

Shidah suggested that we went to Grassroots Club one day after our group discussion and that was when it all started for me. Hehe! As much as I hated studying vectors (and I highly suspect I still do), it's really fun deciding on which angle to shoot from, which ball to go after etc.

Den and I played with Ian and James once. Needless to say, we lost. The guys were just too good.

My game's improving ok! Play play ah! I'm considering taking this "sport" up as a CCA... hahaha!! Pete and I were talking about it once while we were working. That dude was going, "Dunno which idiot would consider Snooker as a sport. Stand it an air-conditioned room with a stick and shooting balls everywhere. Never even perspire... very good sport hor? Can lose alot of weight one eh?". And I thoroughly agree with him!

So peeps, the part about me taking it up as a curriculum activity is a JOKE ok? =)

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BB has a new outlet! Our 7th!

With Mag as the new Manager, I'm sure that place is gonna be filled with fun, joy and laughter once everything's settled. I very long never work under Mag-mag liao leh! Now Wei Sheng and ZiRui have a chance to. Lucky asses.

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I love sub-group 2!!

Semester 2 is definately, without a doubt, a whole lot better than Sem 1. I've grown closer to my group-mates and I enjoy every moment spent with them. We've had pizza together (along with sub-group 1), a good lunch at Swensen's (Andy's treat!!) and that day after HS1029 presentation, we had a 5 hour break. Shidah, Jue and Andy wanted to watch (of all shows), Spirit of the victim.

I HATE HORROR MOVIES!

I made it clear to them that since there were five of us going, I wanted to be the one sitting in the middle. They granted me my request.

We were the only ones in the theatre and whenever some gross/scary scene came, the ones that screamed the loudest were Shidah and I. hahahahaha! And I thought I was the one and only coward around.

Hey guys, more movies and treats in Year 2, Sem 1 ok?! =P

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The making of "Licious".

This one girl I've known for most of my life remains the one friend I can never express enough thanks to. She helped me out when I was going through this huge slump; telling me what to do, the reasons as to why it all happened, how to get back on track.

I LOVE MY LICIOUS BOMBSHELL.

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Nicotine level increasing daily

I know it'a a really bad habit and all but, gimme a break ok? When I fell into this gigantic, pitch-black hole, I couldn't work or smile or even think straight. Ask Clara. When I met her at RP's open house, I couldn't have looked any worse or anorexic. Oh, I wasn't eating well back then too. Survived on just one meal per day and the amount of rice I took in was not even equivalent to half a packet of fries.

She invited me over to her place for dinner but I didn't eat either. All I did was munch on the grapes and gulped down the coke.

I didn't have any suicidal thoughts like I did in the past but the pain I experienced wasn't any less either. I think I need a personal counsellor. Ah, whatever. I can say, I'm almost immune to the pain by now, but until I can stand on my own two feet again without the help of Clara or Denise, this lil habit remains.

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Hole? What hole?!

I'm not sure if I should type it out here since it's really personal and I bet the other party wouldn't like it to be revealed either. I shall try to explain it without letting out too much. I shall TRY.

Erm, I was a happy girl with everything I could ever ask for. Then one day, I met this person who added even more beautiful things into my already perfect life. Obviously, I took in all that the bugger offered and over the weeks, I began craving for it more and more.

It's like an addiction, you know? Take one sniff of that packet of glue and after that, surviving without it is like trying to live without an adequate amount of air supply.

As you can imagine, I was practically depending on his provisions to survive. Going through one day without it was like taking a tour in hell. It was possible to do so, but at the end of the day, I felt worse than shit. I was lower than the dirt found on the sidewalks.

He then began to lessen it all. And I was there gasping for my every breath.. made a prayer, hoping that he'll appear and stop all my sufferings but there was no sign of him. He practically vanished into thin air without any notice in advance. I was left in the man-hole looking like a beggar and feeling like a sucker. Thanks a whole lot, you bastard.

There's still no sign of his emergence from wherever he went to, but once I locate him, I'm gonna suffocate him (I dunno if it'll work out, but it's worth the try). Fucking coward.. you're not that tough after all, aren't you? Hiding from me?! What a joke.

That's all I can type out. The rest would be left buried in that hole he threw me into.

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All in all, January was a bad month lah. I did have my fair share of enjoyment but that incident just had to happen and overwhelm it all. I shall make Febuary a better month.. who wants to go through two sucky months in a row man?

Dearest Coward, if you're reading this, don't plan a party to celebrate my sufferings. It'll be a total waste of time, money and effort. I am back up to my two feet and I'll be taking my first huge step SOON. So don't pop your champagne so early, yea? Save it for the next time you get your hands on someone else.