Monday, September 18, 2006

Undeniable

I just wanna say I love you and I cherish you alot. No amount of thanks can make up for the number of times you've showered me with unfailing love and everlasting care.

I wanna be there for you. To share your pain, your burden and your worries. I want to graduate with good grades, fond memories and strong determination to make you proud. I have let you down this semester; my very first semester. SORRY.

This is a promise I make to you; no more distractions, no more rebelling.

Take care of your health, please. Don't leave me now. I need you more than ever now because your support and encouragement is important to me. I can't bring myself to think about life without you. Don't leave me... please don't.

It's hard for me to express all my emotions out to you face-to-face since I'm not the sort who gets all mushy and emotional. Though I appear nonchalant and cold, it's heart-wrenching to see you in this state. The once fit, once healthy person I knew... now having health problems and a shorter memory span. It hurts me to see you this way, it really does. But all I can do is sit and watch you bear with the aches cause there's nothing I can do to literally ease it off you.

Stay with me till I reach my 21st birthday. Rejoice with me when I graduate and move on from there. Be by my side as I walk down the aisle. Be there to witness the birth of my first child. Guide me along the lines of parenting. Don't ever leave me.

Losing Rocky made me cry two days straight without stopping. Losing you, I'll cry until I become blind and until you rise up from the grave and tell me it's nothing but a bad dream.

I love you that much.