Friday, October 06, 2006

In the midst of attachment

Five days of attachment are over and done with, left with another five more days. My time at the hospital has been pleasant so far; no severe errors, no trouble with patients, no conflicts with staff nurses. The only thing that causes me to cough my lungs out is when I enter the disposal room to empty bedpans and wash them. Smelling the excrement of renal patients is just... oh my... the horrors!!

I really wanna thank Mrs Chia for being so patient with all of us; so encouraging and positive.

There are a couple of patients whom I sincerely hope recover asap. That few ladies in room 6 (Bed 8, I hope I never see you again!), the cute little old man in room 5 and erm, many others lah!

School reopens in a week and this time, may I be more serious and dedicated.

It's back to hell tomorrow. I do question myself, "Why am I still hanging on?!". The reason why I went job-hunting in the first place was to keep myself occupied during my vacation and earn some pocket money. If I found the job too stressful or not to my liking, all I have to do is tender my resignation.

After what Steven did last week, I no longer see a need for me to work so hard for him anymore. All my efforts go unappreciated and my performance is never good enough no matter how hard I try. I'm forever behind the full-timers; inferior to them and lacking in experience. Oh, whatever.

I'm just crossing my fingers that the transferring of staff happens SOON. I don't know how long more I can stay afloat... I seriously don't know. I really need to go on a break... I so wanna throw my bowtie and apron at Steven and walk away. But a promise made is a promise kept. Just a few more months, Kim. Hang on.


You're still deeply etched in my mind. Get lost! I don't wanna see you ever again as well!