Sunday, April 29, 2007

I'm sorry I'm not perfect

You don't wanna be welcomed to my life. I'm pretty much messed up these days and the reasons for me being messed up is pretty much unknown. It sucks being me now... no, it's not school, it's not my social circle, it's not work commitments (yesterday was my last day. yay!), it's definately not BGR... but my family this time round.

I don't know how to explain it all but there are times when I sit down at the dining table with dad, mum, sis and I feel that I don't belong in this household. It just comes to me out of the blue! I haven't argued with my parents for quite sometime now, sis and I aren't getting into anymore (physical) fights.. so why am I feeling this way?

Don't wanna type too much out here because sis reads my blog.

As confused as I may be right now, I can tell you for certain that one day, when my parents eventually leave me and my sister, I won't get a single dime from them. It'll all be inherited by someone else; someone whom my dad loves more than me.

What can I say? Serves me right lor.

Ok, getting really emo now, so I'm just gonna ask God where is he and I'll end it here. Those buggers who're gonna go, "Ha! Your God has forsaken you because you're not a true Christian", please shut up, get lost and STAY LOST. Now's not the time to agitate me any further.


God, WHERE ARE YOU?!

The rest of the human population are Your creations, I'm Your mistake. My life's a joke, the things that I do are jokes, I am a joke. Forgive me for the bluntness and disrespect, but whenever I'm in times of need, you're on a roadtrip. *sigh* Can't blame you for ignoring my pleas lah... can't blame anyone for the current state that I'm in. Won't be turning suicidal anytime (Mr A, you can relax now). That'll be so cowardly.

You were the one who gave me life (though it may be a mistake), so if anyone's gonna rob me of my last breath, it's gotta be You. But I'm still living so You must have a pretty darn good reason for it. Care to tell me the reason for my living? It doesn't seem to be doing mankind any good... just adding onto the demanding of resources that the world will soon run out of. Pathetic life that I'm leading. RAH!

I WANNA GO ON A PERMANENT VACATION! <-- please grant me my wish!!

In the name of the Father, Son and the Holy ghost; Amen!










The loser who misused the name of Jesus and Mother Mary in C's blog, watch your balls.. He's prolly gonna send a whole army of termites to gnaw it off your groin. Ouch! I wouldn't wanna know how it feels like to get bitten in between the legs and then witnessing my genital fall to the ground.