Sunday, June 12, 2005

Puleeeeessssseee....!!!!!

I'VE HAD IT! Why am I always being portrayed as the bad guy when it comes to issues in the family?! Gimme one heck of a reason why! It is not my fault that SHE chose to slit her wrist; she began inflicting pain on herself even before I became her "mentor". So how can it be because of me that she's suicidal?! And please hor, I certainly did not teach her to use the F-word. SHE PICKED THAT UP IN SCHOOL! geddit?

I simply can't believe how relatives (blood-related, mind you!) can stereotype me as whatever they claim I am.

Kimberly Lee is a 17 year old repeat student who is trying fucking hard to pass maths and science! She hardly has time to hang out with friends nowadays because of the amount of workload being thrown on her table. Her only worries now are her studies and the coming Judo Nationals! No boys, no shopping sprees, no sun-tanning etc. She is NOT an 'Ah-lian', she is NOT suicidal and so what if she's liberal with her thoughts? It's because of this particular trait that she manages to communicate with her dad; unlike you and your daughter.

But sadly (as always) my aunt can't be blamed for all that's happened because my DUMBASS cousin is at fault too! I trusted her! I told her every single thing that took place in my life, I confided in her about how I managed to handle situations and you know what?! She wants to be me. She wants to be like her cousin who is able to use profanities in front of her parents, she wants to be able to stay out till' 12am, she wants to have boys under her list of buddies, she wants to 'havoc' in a neighbourhood school blah blah blah!

IT ALL GOES DOWN TO THE FACT THAT SHE WANTS TO BE ME! But she cant! She will never, never, never, ever, ever, ever be like me (or anything close). She called me one night and told me that she had a major argument with her mum. She asked me how I spilled my emotions to my dad. I told her, I jotted down my thoughts, my dreams, my ideals, everything that's important to me in a letter and passed it to my father. He read it and he understood.

So what did this blockhead of a cousin do the very next day?! She wrote a letter to her mum! But this was no ordinary letter. It was more of a suicide cum self-pity note which she hoped would draw attention to her! She wrote about how she slashed her arm, how she wished she had never been born, how much she hated her mum (and she still dare to give it to her mother. stupid rite?!) My aunt blew her top and reprimanded her even more. Haiz...

And this little 15 yr old cousin asked me why my dad didn't get mad after reading what I wrote. Tsk tsk... if I had known she would copy my footsteps, I would NEVER tell her about how I communicate with dad.

Brainless girl! When I say "write a letter", it does not refer to writing how you once tried to end your life with a pen-knife! That's only for attention! I meant telling your mum about how's your life in school, what are your plans for the future, how are you coping with homework etc.! NOTHING ABOUT DYING, NOTHING ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU HATE HER, NOTHING ABOUT WANTING TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME! understand?!

*reaches boiling-point*

You all think that people who study in respectable schools should be smart, street-wise and mature right? Read this:

Kim: My school cannot go roof-top lah! got so many cameras around, how to go?

Dysfunctional cousin: Huh? Why must have cameras around?

Kim: You say leh? I come from a neighbourhood school where the students are always up to mischieve. and mixed school oso lor... sometimes got petting going on lor.

DC: Huh? what is petting?

Kim: Kissing lah! touch touch here, touch touch there lah! Wah piang eh... this one you oso dunno? Liew... gone case sia you.

DC: Erm, boys and girls are not allowed to kiss and touch in your school meh?

Kim: EH!!!! Like you said, it's a SCHOOL! School allow students to do such stuff one arh?

DC: but it's a mixed school right? Technically it should allowed right?

Kim: You mad izzit? Since when got such thing?! Go school for pupils to get sexually active huh?

Dc:Your school no security guard one meh? why must use camera?

Kim: security guard so free arh? everyday walk pass the classrooms no need to stay at the gate one meh? moreover my school that ah-pek oso cannot be considered as security guard lah.

DC: but every school will be appointed a security guard mah... MOE appoint one.

Kim: really huh? you know my school didn't haf a 'security guard' until 2003 leh. MOE's action damn slow hor? Your school have doesn't mean mine have mah. All schools are different.

DC: but Gan Eng Seng secondary have leh.

Kim: like i said, all schools are different.

DC: Gan Eng Seng sec oso government school leh.

Kim: All schools are different lah!

DC: Gan Eng Seng oso gvernment school!!

Kim: ALL SCHOOLS ARE DIFFERENT, YOU UNDERSTAND OR NOT?! wah lan eh!

DC: okok.

How dumb can people get these days? Aiyoh... I give up lah. Never gonna chat with her on the phone again. I might burst from trying to control my anger. Rrrrrrrrroooooaaarrrr!