Monday, June 12, 2006

Freedom to express

I shouldn't be doing this because I promised Clara and Siti that I'd move on, but I can't help it. The load is too much to carry and I need to let it all out. That's the good thing about having an unknown blog; nobody is able to read what you're about to write and therefore, you're free of judgement.

Bitches, you two know for a fact that Sal is not a bad guy. Remember all the times I've told you about how he treats me? If he were a "bastard" or a "jerk", would he go to the extent of being such a gentlemen?

He might have chosen his studies over me, but have you asked yourself why he did that?

If it was me, I would've gone for my education as well. He's not being selfish... he just can't afford to love. At least not now when he's being offered such a chance to excel. I honestly don't expect him to give up this opportunity for me or any other girl. From what I know, he went through a great deal to finally snag himself a vacancy.

After what he told Clara, he has proven to me that he's not a bad person. It's all really simple; he doesn't want to be committed to a long-distance relationship because he's aware that it ain't easy and both parties might get hurt in the process. I guess, he's just not willing to risk our friendship.

I am sad that things didn't turn out the way I wanted it to, but then again, it might be better to have him as a friend. Boyfriends come and go like how fresh green leaves grow on a branch and fall off a few months later. Friendship, on the other hand, lasts forever. The things he's done for me, the outings we've had, the late-night suppers, the 3 day sms marathon...

I wouldn't trade those times/things for anything else the world has to offer.

Bitches, thank you. Sal, good luck.