Saturday, February 23, 2008

I am so not good at financial issues!


This year's CNY ang-pow collection wasn't bad... and now that it's the holidays, THERE'S A VOICE TELLING ME TO SPEND EVERY CENT ON LUXURY ITEMS!


*sob sob*


It is so easy to fall into this temptation of spending cash like water. Afterall, the money did flow to me like water. Hahahaha!!!


BUT IT'S HEART-BREAKING TO SEE MY MONEY FLOW AWAY FROM ME LAHHH!!


When I was still working for BB, I had all the money I could ask for. I got even richer during the semestral holidays because I'd be working at least 5-6 days a week from noon to night.


But even though I was (arguably) rich back then, I didn't know what to spend on because I WAS ALWAYS WORKING. Therefore, I splurged a whole lot on clothes, make-up and accessories (Poly student mah... what can be more impt than clothes?) and dining at poshy-poshy restaurants like Chicago Steakhouse, New York New York, Jack's place, Fish&Co., etc.


Not to mention, the multiple cab rides I took when I missed my last bus.











Now that I'm no longer earning, and very much relying on my father for allowances, thinking back about how ALL my dough disappeared makes me wanna give my ass a good kick.


*kick*

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Ouch.

Not only did I waste it on a truckload full of junk, it was mostly spent on leisure! If I had saved back then, I would've been a rich kid by now!


During this vacation, (after flipping through my organiser) I realised that I have ALOT going on. Sun-tanning sessions, changing of my hairstyle (yesh, I've yet to cut it because...), I just purchased my crystals yesterday and there are still other stuff I need to get for this project I'm currently working on, meeting with friends for chilling sessions (Groupies! Marissa! Oxy! Siti!Who else?!), pool sessions, guitar lessons, Judo Camp, IVP, Judo Chalet... and of course, meeting up with my man =D


So much to get involved in and I'm penny-less -_-"


Plus, I wanted SO BADLY to go on the diving trip @ Tioman with him!! But I couldn't raise the money in time, so I gotta give it a miss and only go during my next vacation (or after PRCP, it depends).


Nah, didn't have the nerve (or rather, my skin wasn't thick enough) to approach Papa to sponsor me for yet another trip overseas. Firstly, he already paid a *huge sum* for me to go to Chiangmai. Secondly, he gives me money ALMOST EVERYDAY for school. Thirdly, he's paying for my school fees which are NOT CHEAP. Lastly, I turn frickin' 20 this year! A 20 year old depending so much on her father's wallet to survive? How un-hawt!


Before I went to bed last night, I was wondering how cool it would be to walk the sandy beaches and dive in the clear blue waters of Tioman. But reality striked; I'M COMPARABLE TO A BEGGAR!!


Why, oh why?!

Getting a part-time job now is OUT OF THE QUESTION. Year 3 already leh... dare not take anymore risks. I don't wanna retain and watch my other coursemates graduate and start work at their respective hospitals!! It sucks to be retained... it really does! LOL! Having to adapt to a whole new class and a new form teacher; been there, done that.

THE FEELING IS FUCKED UP!

Ah, whatever! Don't wanna talk about it anymore... sekali got people come to my house and confront me. Ew!

Dad says one of his pals has an available post for me doing paperwork. But can only work for two days... WTH!! How much can I earn in (less than) 48 hours?! A hundred bucks? Let's add it to the amount that SGH is gonna issue to me for my up-coming attachment... totals up to $250. Hmm, not bad! Now add it to my CNY money and other savings...

Not bad at all!

But I'll only get my "pay" for attachments after two (superly duperly) long months! And so, it defeats the purpose because I would've started school by then.

-sometimes I feel that life has this MEGA grudge against me-




Yeaps, and the above statement was oh-so-random and oh-so-NOT-me.

This is one lesson learnt the hard way... and I'm crying my retina out as I type this. I have become so melodramatic nowadays! Tsktsktsk... at risk of BPD. HAHAHAHA!!! I need professional help STAT!


So it happened on 16.05.1984!!! <-- totally unrelated to the entire entry =)